It was at this tender age Istarted thinking that I wanted to be a girl. You see, I am a man in mythirties who likes to dress as a girl whenever I can ...nd it all stemsfrom those early childhood stirrings.I think the first ideas that popped into my head were at school duringgym class. I was so jealous of the girl's navy knickers, it seemscrazy, but I hated having to wear shorts while the girls all ran aboutin their pants!! I used to gaze at this one girl Heather, wishing thatI could be wearing. She went away and I sat there for another indeterminate period. Then I heard a soft knock on the door and Linda's voice, "John?"I invited her in. She stood there and looked at me with a strange, sad, compassionate stare. Then she said, "You heard us last night?"I looked at her for what seemed like a long time. I thought of how beautiful she was. Of my feelings for her, almost like my daughter. But I wanted her. I knew that then. I wanted her in my bed but she was my daughter's lover. My heart. .. if you everactually get here. Ken and Chris come over a lot and we just hang out andplan out our next run.I'm staying in that Physics class I told you about, I finally agreed toperform that extra credit for the Professor. I'm actually doing a lot oftutor work too, although I really don't know why all these guys aresigning up, I'm not that good at Physics. All my other classes are goingalright, I guess. I think I may have to do some extra credit in some otherclasses to keep up.We met up with. A dorm is no placefor a baby..." She looked at us sternly."Yes ma'am," Megan told her."Well, if you'll excuse me I'm going to get home to my own babies whoare due for lunch soon. Or at least I'm due for lunch soon... Mybreasts definitely feel like it's lunch," she said as a joke to Amanda.She gave a wry smile and nod. "I know what you mean, have a goodweekend Jackie."As she left Amanda closed the door then came to pick me up and I asked."So what is going on with Bella?"She sighed. "It was touch.