It ruined everything. Everyone. Trust was impossible. Love even less so.So at thirteen, standing in the teak paneled hall outside the study, I learned...that my dream of possibly escaping my fate was shattered.Oh, I rebelled in small ways. I eventually managed to lose my virginity to a Norwegian ski instructor. And found a birth control pill pack on my bathroom sink the next day. I couldn’t find the instructor again.Every small rebellion was neatly countered, or ignored. Prep school led to. I groaned,inwardly I thought, but Sue squeezed my arm, got up on her tiptoes, andwhispered in my ear."You are not going to get off that easily sweety! I want to show off mynew doll to everyone in town!"We spread out the quilt and my companions took their seats, clearlywaiting for me to serve lunch. I brought out each of the bento boxes,which were wrapped in decorative napkins that my governess had meembroider over the past few weeks and handed them out. The girls wereclearly impressed with. She removed her hands and felt a wave of tiredness wash over her. but this was just the beginning... She got up and went to the kitchen and pure herself a glass of wine. going back to the chair she watched the porn video. wishing it was her husband and her in the movie. oh well she thought. secretly she hoped he would barge in on her, whisk her away and fuck her like a mad man. she got wet just thinking about it. its not that her husband didn't pleasure her with sex, she only wished it. My breasts were bared to the road and the night world and the light from the headlights flashed across them every few seconds. I was getting terribly turned on by the idea that anyone who could see me (and the drivers must be able to or were they all asleep?) couldn’t do anything about it other than enjoy the sight. My skin was tingling from the night air and sexual excitement. I straightened my arms downwards and let the coat fall to the grass around my feet. Fully naked I faced the traffic. .