"Please Mommy Adriana, I'll be good, I have learned my lesson."This caused her another round of laughter."You still don't get it, don't you? If I say ...omething you canbet on me doing it, sweetheart. I just want the best for you, soif you know what is good for you stop whining and take yourpunishment like a good girl," laughing once again at the irony ofher words. Would this humiliation ever stop? I looked at her and like in slow motion I positioned myself overher, already the second time in. The horror on Nicole'sface - my old face - was burned into my memory. I betrayed her. Shebetrayed me first, but two wrongs don't make a right. I know this, butI did it anyway. Now I feel incredibly guilty. Guilty but notregretful. If I had to do it all over again - I'd do it again. Hell, Iwanted to do it again. Right now. But Tyler was sound asleep.It wasn't fair. She knew I was falling for Tyler. She asked me not to,but I did. I couldn't help it. I started off pretending, but it. You’re smart, strong and know all about surviving in a less than friendly town. What better way to use all that aggression than the U.S. Marines? Besides, if you don’t seriously consider this, I can guarantee where you’re gonna end up.’ ‘And, where is that?’ I sneered. ‘Dead!’ ‘Big fucking deal. So what? Everyone ends up dead. If you know anything about me, you’d know that.’ ‘Jas, I know about your old man and your mother and I’ve spoken with your uncle. I know you’ve had to grow up on the. It was dark and eventually everyone was settling down, the bombing had stopped, but as with tradition everyone stayed down there until the morning, I had planned to but for a different reason, the old man behind me had put his arm around me, under my blanket and over my coat. I could feel his closeness and it reminded me of my wedding night, a strange but wonderful feeling, one I had longed to feel again and here it was, in the dark and under blankets. I placed my hand on his hand and gave it a.