At the same point of time I was absolutely unable to control my overwhelming desire to see it. I felt a real difference between something real & digit...l. Porn wasn’t now working at all. And there was only two other activities in my life at that time namely studies & workout. So I wasn’t in the position to allocate two three hours to masturbation as porn was hardly even achieving erection in half an hour.Then at one day I made a big time mistake. I kept staring at her cleavage even in presence. I will admit that a part of me wanted to follow her lead, but my male self was scared stiff and, this time, he won. Barely. "Jake, I'm so sorry. I didn't realize how this would affect you. I wouldn't do anything to hurt you or our friendship. I need you more than ever Jake. Without you and my family I would be alone and I can't take that right now. Please say you'll forgive me." Without realizing what I was doing I moved closer to him. Then, before I knew it, he took my face in his. She treated me like I was grown up and we got along really well and I was glad I ran into her. As we drove she invited over to her house. I had wondered where she had gone. She had a small cute house and she invited in. Once inside she asked if I wanted something to drink and I told her just water. She offered me wine or beer but I told her I was driving. She gave me a glass of water and she had a glass of wine. We talked for a while then she went to change. She had me follow her to her. Ed poured me a drink and after two hours of drinking everyone was quite merry and l was receiving sexual comments from all the men and loving it. A song came on the radio and Ed asked me to dance as we swayed around the room we began kissing and he began fondling my bum which came to a stop when Cyril cut in and ask Ed if he could taste his breeding mare, Ed replied “by all means”, Cyril pressed his lips to mine we French kissed as the other’s watched on, then Cyril took my hand and placed it.