We really had not spoken anything about how far I wanted to go. And of course, neither her. She had not said anything about that subject. Actually the...whole BDSM thing had been a surprise. And in all honesty I enjoyed the sex a lot more. I was surprised how good the sex could be under these conditions. So here she was with a present for me. - Don't worry sweetie, I know that you can not speak and that, without looking what it is I brought, you will be pleasently surprised. No, she said, not. ”Jegan’s face got very red, “Amma, that is, I…”Jeya cut him off, “Wait until I’m finished, I’ve been thinking about what to say all afternoon. Jegan I know you’re a twenty-five year old man and your sex drive is very strong.””Mom,” interrupted Jegan again.”No, let me finish. I know you have strong feelings of love for me. Sometimes these feelings of love can be mistaken for feelings of lust. With wife you can love with sex, but with amma you must love with only affection and care, that’s what. Well, you know. I had been there a week when I first met you. I knew I loved you right away, but didn't know how to act on it since we were so far apart in age. I would have given anything to work up the courage to just tell you how I felt, but I just didn't know how. And even if I did, I wasn't sure how you might respond. So I played it by ear until last night and then it all came together so wonderfully. I couldn't be happier, but I don't know what we should do now". Her head sagged and the. The mages had been training – there were now a handful with the ability to shape-change into a bird – but that didn’t negate the need for horseback messengers, especially when it came to communications with the Chantry, who none of the Dalish mages would approach after a first, awkward confrontation that barely avoided bloodshed.All of that meant that she was cold, wet, and exhausted; she’d been riding from dawn until dusk day after day, with no semi-permanent base – so unlike the rest of her.