He said he wished us well and he looked forwardto seeing us at out home in a week for an interview, to make sure thatthis wedding wasn't a fake. My he...rt almost stopped. I didn't want todress up again. I didn't want to be alone with Carlos while beingdressed. It was just too much to handle. I just wanted to go home andbe a man again. When it was finally over Carlos and I got into a limoand we rode back to Candie's house. I started to cry in the car. I toldCarols that I had made a mistake by. " I figured he would want to talk to me about something or other. The way it stood now, I had given him all the computer equipment but kept the surveillance equipment. I didn't have any of it with me, but he could overnight anything I needed. That is he could if he set up shop in my office building. If not I could buy the stuff online and just wait for it to show up. I could also go back to the old way of surveillance, sit across the street with a cup of coffee. Or maybe follow people leaving. It took the constant shouts of my parents to even get me to start to exercise.By the time the lockdown started to ease I was at least running on a more regular basis, which made me feel a bit better about myself, burning off some of the lockdown gut I had grown, and I counted down the days to the barbers reopening to rid myself of my moptop hairdo.As I returned from my run I noticed my local grocery was advertising for staff; normally I wouldn't have seen myself doing this but circumstances had. Phir us din mama ne kaha k sab ko shopping jana hai to tu market leja tu mere aunty aur sumaiya mila k kuch 5 ladies the unho ne us din mere se kuch bat nahi ki ye bat mere aunty ne notice ki wo kehne lagi ki tum dono me jhagda hua kya maine kaha nahi to aunty ne kaha phir bat q nahi kar rahe ho maine kaha nahi aise koi bat nahi hai aur shop se bahana bana k baher aaya sumaiya mere se nazar hi nahi mila rahi thi to mujhe bohat bura laga.Phir sab log market se wapas aagaye raat ka khana khane k.