What you're experiencing. It's just the beginning. His suffering was ten times worse." She paused, watching Matthew's face. He was terrified, but coul... not look away. "He screamed. Begged. Cried. For two whole weeks." Her eyes danced from side to side. She was taking great pleasure in recounting the experience. "Want to know how he died?" she asked. She got up and stepped closer to Matthew. Taking hold of his testicles, she squeezed them harshly. Squatting down on his level, nose inches. She took it out and tossed it across the bed, then went through the drawers.Most of the drawers were empty, but in one Jason's sisters had left panties, socks, and undershirts from their younger days. They were all clean, but some of the panties had gussets with faded stains. She eventually found a clean pair that looked like they'd fit and some long socks that would cover her scars.Grabbing her backpack and the clean clothes, she headed to the bathroom and locked the door. Being able to lock a. I was meeting a friend who had phoned me, upset with the state of her marriage, because her husband was screwing around up in Scotland." Pete never..." Oh! Yes! Pete did. Ask him about Dawn. That's why Lucy went and found me in the first place. And that's why she was out with me that night. Because your wonderful son, who takes bottles to people in pub fights, couldn't stay faithful to Lucy." Oh! I didn't know... he didn't tell me that bit. Oh!" and she looked worried and shame faced.Lucy's Dad. Maddy began dabbing at my eyes with a tissue. I read it again and a third time. The tears stopped and I just sat there."Vaughn, are you alright?"I sat with my head in my hands. "So that's it, it's all true.--Why would she do this to me? She gives me two children, knowing someone is waiting to snatch them away from me. How could anyone do that and still claim to love me?" She did love you, Vaughn. Writing that letter was the hardest thing she ever had to do." And you, you knew. All that sympathy.