The mansion blocked a good deal of the city lights. For a few minutes, I watched the small trees blow in the breeze and let my mind empty. In the city... I was never alone. Even when I was home, the sounds of neighbors and passing traffic always intruded. Turning back into the room, the sudden lack of light turned everything into a deep, impenetrable gloom. Feeling my way, I found the bar and grabbed a bottle of something. I didn’t even bother to try and read the label. I could have my own pity. When it was ready I sat at the table, crossed one leg over the otherand forked it into my mouth. I was bloody starved. I flicked theportable TV on with the remote control and watched a chat show.What a tawdry fantasy it was - living the solitary life of a whore -but I was experiencing it fully in that squalid little flat. It waslike a masochistic dream come true.When I finished the food I opened the vodka and filled a large plastictumbler from the cupboard. Then I plopped down again and carried. We were very happy. Sakshi’s mother and father was a bank employee and her younger brother was in class 6. So there will be no one at her home till 3:00PM. Once we were talking on phone I asked her to come at home. She agree but she said she will not do anything. i said we will just kiss nothing else.Next day she told she is not well so she didn’t go to school. After her parents went to bank she called me to come at her place at 12:00. I went her area and my heart beat was very fast. I called. They weren’t doing anything malicious, but they were doing something naughty.Dan and Tim, both finished high school last year so they are eighteen or nineteen years old, both swimmers, members of the surf club, I know them by name but don’t know that well. It was these two teenagers that I saw, Dan was standing over Tim who was on his knees licking the front of Dan’s speedo.Dan saw me in his peripheral vision as I walked around the corned and swore. Tim jumped to his feet and then the two of.