He is so close. He will soon be ready. I just need to have patience and not touch him until I am sure he can handle me. I cannot bear to lose him like...I have so many others. And they were not lifelong friends that knew me inside and out. Losing Glenn in my life would devastate me and Mami, too. I think she loves him more as the son she doesn’t have than I love him as a friend who has evolved into my best opportunity for a future as a wife and mother.I am starving again. I guess that session. Once the cage was opened I found it exciting and new. I didn’t want to suppress my urges or stop making friends. This was my new life.“Well, just be safe. Not all men have good intentions or your best interests in mind. Especially some of the ones I’ve heard you’ve been hanging out with.”I knew she was referencing Jimmy and I wondered how much she knew. My anxiety was building and I decided not to unwrap this ball of yarn yet.“Cuddle?” I asked her with accompanied with a cute smile. “Not. Louise was carried across the grass with her arms flailing and her legs kicking like an ornery school girl. Natalie said that she made quite a fuss about being loaded into the car until three loud slaps on bare skin resulted in silence."I tried my best to comfort poor Natalie at this point. I put my arm around her shoulders and said 'that must have been a very hard thing for you to see!" About the hardest thing I ever had to witness. I heard the boss tell Jason that they would take care of. My third year of high school saw me buying a pickup truck and a trailer to haul the equipment that I was accumulating for my lawn and garden care business. By the end of the growing season that year, I had hired three fellow classmates to do general lawn mowing and trimming with me. I was very busy.That was the year I learned that the IRS came after kids who made money. Oh, they didn't come for me that way. It's just that I made so much money, that I had to declare it for tax purposes. I had.