.. Pauvres hommes, j'allai tous les rendre fous! Et aussipauvres femmes, elles qui allaient devoir subir la comparaison avec moi.?a n'emp?che que je n...avais pas voulu ?a! En pensant ?d?sir?, je n'avaisjamais song? ?changement de sexe?! Choqu? par la perte de ma virilit?,j'?tais en col?re contre le g?nie, m?me si je comprenais sa logique:apr?s l'instinct de survie, l'envie qui nous poss?de le plus, c'est bienla sexualit?. Attirer le d?sir, cela suppose de s?duire et, sur ce plan,les femmes ont. If my mouth can do to your prick what it justdid, then your mouth can do the same to my cunt; that’swhat Dagwood called it. So, I’ll lie down on the bedand spread my legs and you see what you can do to medown there.”Wow, what could I do to her down there? I didn’t knowwhat to do, but figured I’d just start out by kissingher there and see what happened next. I tried, butfound out the bed was too soft and she was too low forme to really get at it, so I took both of. Where once I might have giggled and pushed you in with my own hand, now I lay silent, yet not unwilling.You press, and with slight resistance, my corpse allows the finger entry. A wave of heat washes over you, and you know that your last opportunity is upon us. Again you drink in the sight of me in my repose.The tragic beauty of my body as it lies in state is a far cry from the almost comedic position my final moments left me in. There I would lie until found, facedown in a pool of my own. Last night their encounter had seemed like such an impromptu incident, where she had felt like she had somehow won him over, and pleasured Lukas because he was an eager participant. Now it seemed like he was only there to do as he was told, and it pierced the illusion. The notion that he would be interested in something more from her now seemed foolish. He seemed as much in the employ of her week-long ‘Daddy’ as she herself was. Anything more they did together would be performative, for his.