"I think most people today have forgotten what sacrifices my ancestors made, what a horror they saved us from." I know what you mean. Life is so incre...ibly easy now. The horror before Abdul Hadi is almost unimaginable."A deep sigh from his companion. "So, Basel, what else would you like to know? I can start with another monologue, or I can answer questions about my life." Any questions?" Basel asked with a playful grin."Yeah, pretty much." Actually, before we start, I was wondering..." Basel. I hate myself for being born aboy, and for becoming a whore and a slut, someone whom Matt will alwaysdisdain. I wish I could just disappear, or just die and be reborn as Ishould be, a beautiful girl. But Buddhist reincarnation is just as mucha fairy tale as the omnipotent Christian God, or the Easter Bunny. I amwhat I am. If I am to become what I want to be, I must remake myself,with hormones, silicone, and surgery. Suddenly I am hot, burning with angry self awareness and hatred. . ”Case noticed comfortable-looking porch swings and gliders in various places along the wide veranda which ran the length of the ground floor.Maybe I should incorporate something like this in my fantasy stucco house in Austin - a tranquil place that lends itself to relaxation. Who needs a pool, anyway?The four of them walked a few steps along the wood planks of the veranda, and through the open French doors into the dining room.It was a large room with a high ceiling supported by exposed beams,. Bout a week before she graduated and a year before our planned wedding, I found out that the last 3 years we where together, she had been cheating on me with a guy she had always told me was "just a friend". They had also been engaged at the same time we were. Needless to say, I was crushed. I had noone to really talk to about it. About the only person who knew what happened and tried to help was her mom. For the first 6 months after my ex left, she would still come back to fuck from time to.