My avoidance has been set purely in my self-deprecation. Looking around at rehearsals, I have seen people flirt with him, completely unabashed. I've e...en seen him flirt back, but I have never even envisioned the idea of being this close to him, let alone having locked lips with him and having the attraction reciprocated even merely carnally. He watches me now with those hypnotic green eyes and I nervously look away and clear my throat before taking another sip of coffee."I have a spare room you. ”That made us both blush as Jimmy left shaking his head saying, ‘Goodnight’ to both of us.“Claire, I meant that we each needed to get to sleep tonight. I meant nothing disrespectful to you at all. Can you forgive me?”“Forgive you for what, Charles?” a voice behind us said.“I said something that was misconstrued, but it’s all good now, Sarah.”“The two of you are heading towards a moment in your lives that may or may not live up to your own expectations. You are still only thirteen so act like it. But the scene before her has drastically changed. Kate’s palm on Trevor’s face and a laugh that came from her belly. Simple gestures but atomic bombs. Fortune tellers. From this moment on, everything changes. Trevor, that fucker, knows it too. He pulls Kate closer to him and whispers, his palms on her hips. Again, palms. Oh fuck, the intimacy of palms. Kate giggles softly . . . sweetly. . . and as Trevor’s mouth sinks down into her neck, he claims his hard-fought prize. Kate turns her head to. What’s more everyone was satisfied.Admittedly I still had favourites, nuns I looked forward to servicing more than others and perhaps more than I should but I was working on it. I had just fed the animals and watered the horses before heading inside to wash up and help Mother Helena finish preparing the evening meal. I peeled potatoes silently as Helena worked on her pies thinking about Sister Annabelle who had recently given birth to a baby boy, my baby boy. Annabelle’s pregnancy was not in.