Allison thought she didn't hear him correctly."Sorry,what"."You will address me as Abbot,and I will tell you again,bend over my knee,little girl." I'm...s*******n,I'm not a little girl,Abbot",Allison said regretting what she said the moment the words were out of her mouth."You are such an insolent girl,if you do not bend over my knee I will have you caned by six nuns,do you understand that LITTLE GIRL",the monk said sternly. Allison decided to let the remark go,she had a vision of six nuns. I’m sure he meant it when he told me he loved me. But he wasn’t the man for me, obviously. Since having Danny, I’ve come to realize love is a giving and a receiving. It’s helping the other person grow in whatever way they want. It’s also respecting who that person is because they share your values. Josh never asked for anything and he never gave anything. Neither did I. I guess we were both selfish. We lived in the same house. We lead our own lives. We went out once a week and sometimes had. I don't really have to work but I thought that working at the Vet's office would get me out of the house and keep from getting bored. I lost my husband in the Bosnia fiasco and he left me a good insurance package plus widows pay from the government. My family lives on the west coast but I had chosen to stay in Virginia where I purchased a country home around Manassas.Night is good in D.C. and Georgetown and living in the mountains is quiet and beautiful with lots of privacy. I had been working. So we stopped a bit, he did some poppers and used a fairly small dildo to loosen himself up while I wanked to try and get myself hard again, and we tried again, but still no luck. Finally, he stood up and bent over, holding on to the arm of the sofa and I went behind him to try again, but still it wouldn't go in, and in the end we decided it must be too big. I was a little surprised, as I didn't think that less than two inches thick and about seven inches long was especially large, just.