For years, she and I hardly spoke or acknowledged each other but I always looked over, hoping to steal a glance of her. She has nonchalantly paraded h...r seductive, tanned body around in a very skimpy bathing suit every summer since they had moved in several years ago. All those years. Each one I had spent wanting her, lusting for her.Over the past several years we had started waving to each other, and last year she and I had a few conversations. Don't ask me what the topics were because I. Then she saw him through the crowd and she smiled and walked fast, almost running and stopped in front of him and simply said, “Hi.” He gazed at her, her small frame covered in a pretty red button-up cotton sundress, he dropped his bags and smiled and hugged her, “I thought you said you’d give me hug?” “I believe it was supposed to be a handshake and then a hug,” she whispered to his ear while hugging him back. She breathed deeply and smiled. “Let’s go. It’s crowded here.” He grabbed his. " That's all I ask. Of course, Austin must never know about this conversation." Of course not."I took her hand and begged, "Janet, please be very, very careful! People have disappeared over this thing!" I can take care of myself," she assured. "Don't worry about me, OK?"December 7, 2014:Catching up on my log. I made contact with Donald again. Arrangements for the meeting in Columbia, Missouri are all set for the 15th of the month. Carol is coming with me, and Donald says that's not a problem,. Scared.” “Are you saying that this Freddy-guy forced you to have sex with him?” “Well, yes...and no...I mean...kind of,” she replied in a wishy-washy manner, shrugging her shoulders. “He cornered me in a room, and told me to pull my pants down.” “And you just went ahead, and did what he told you to do?” I asked incredulously. “No, not at first. But then he said, 'What's the matter with you? Didn't you hear me?' And he stepped in closer to me, and he told me again to pull my pants down. I could.