” She played the role so well that I only realized all of this later, and I wonder still whether this was the real Mei, or the role she had chosen ...s the one that would suit me. We walked for an hour or two. By that time we were laughing and telling old stories. Our laughter was real, not the automatic kind in the whorehouse two nights ago. Lunch was served to us under the manicured trees. After, we walked to the right of the mansion, down to a secluded stream that watered the orchards. . Liv found a pink, fuzzy ear and held it up sadly. Finn laughed. "I guess this is the end of that slipper? He served his country well. I think only a burial in Arlington National Cemetery would be proper." Yeah, it would only be fitting," Liv said dramatically, as she wrinkled her face in revulsion. The sight was nauseating, but after seeing so many dead bodies in the past few days, she was starting to become desensitized. Out of the corner of her eye, she noticed a small amount of movement."Oh. As much as she wanted her head to take control, her heart always won. After months of booty calls and guilt she ended the relationship. That's when the nights of tears began, a realisation that he had meant more to her, than she to him.However she had to be strong, there was so much for her to live for. She had her life planned out before she'd met him. All she could do was to put him down as life's little experience that got thrown to her. She had enjoyed their time together, but it could. But when I attemptedto emulate the behavior that seemed so normal, I was socially ostracized.I rarely had close friends as a child, I was just different and strange -an exogenous factor that didn't compute with the system.I discovered Fictionmania in 1998 with the advent of the Internet. Inhindsight, I can say that I wasted many years that I could have beenliving as a girl by visiting that site. It all seemed to be so impossiblefor so long - but here is the story of how I beat my fear and got.