I wish I could tell you how much stronger, faster, swifter and assertive they were than you. I wish I could tell you that you opened a door that can n... longer be closed. You opened my eyes to a whole new world that I never knew existed. How are you ever going to follow up what Rodney and Ken did to me? How are you ever going to measure up? How are you going to fulfill my needs and desires? You can't. You just can't! This was not a one time deal, babe. This was just an initiation. I belong to. "Oh god, it's you," she said."Are you okay, Laura?" Jonelle asked, as she stepped inside.Embarrassed, Laura exerted every effort to get control of herself. "Yes. I'm fine."Jonelle smiled nervously as Laura shut the door. Laura found herself quickly recalling the way Jonelle had reminded her to lock it when they had met this way, in this same hotel, about a year ago. This time Jonelle said nothing like that."You know, Laura, I always sort of relied on you to be the strong one," she said. "You. Your mother is gone from my life and I still miss her very much. However, I still am relatively young and at not quite fifty years.“My biggest mistake was to send Junior to live here. Naomi had overseen the ranch for me until he arrived even though it wasn’t what she was hired for. She didn’t feel as if she should report on Junior’s activities because he was my son. The ranch went to hell and in retrospect I should have kept closer watch on him myself and he might still be alive today. Getting. Ask the others. I'm not really a kid anymore. I'll stay out of the way. I'll do exactly what I'm told. Go out for steak and lobster and leave me with a loaf of bread and a jar of peanut butter. I won't complain about a thing. I'll sleep in the car! If I get thirsty, I'll boil up a little lake water. It'll be okay, everything'll be fine. No one will even know I'm there." I was desperate. They knew this as well.The first night they had the first big bash aboard the houseboat. I nearly instantly.