" I just smiled. With that she got out of the car and wished me good night and we agreed to talk the next day.Over the next few days work was very hec...ic but I made it a point to check in with Jo. Just quick hello. I was thinking about her every minute, I thought that finally she is the one, the one I will settle down with. On Thursday I sent her a bouquet of flowers with note that said, "I love you." Later that day when I tried to check in with her she didn't pick up her cell phone. I thought. . are you Lamar?"Lamar grinned and shook his head."Ya see, I had Lamar here sort of edit some scenes together so it tells a story." A story?" asked Kirk, "Most porn I've seen didn't have much of a plot line." Oh this one's got a great story, one you just won't believe," smiled Jamal pushing the play button. "See it starts with this White guy fuckin' this Black guy's wife..."The TV screen brightened to life and there, clearly were Kirk and Coleen, both naked, Kirk between her legs and pumping. "If you really want to swim," I told her, "There is nothing to stop us. We have the place to ourselves and even if there should happen to be somebody in the far distance; unless they have binoculars they are not going to be able to tell that we are naked." That might be true," Rebecca replied, "But we have no towels to dry ourselves." We don't need them, if we lie in the sun afterwards we will dry off soon enough," I said. "If we are still not dry by the time we are ready to go we can use the. The last few weeks had been a rollercoaster of emotions I was barelyprepared to process now, let alone in those moments then. My mindfluctuated so hard every day between loving my new clothes and wanting tokeep going and accept my feminized persona and be Lily with Erin all thetime, and hating what I had become, wanting it only to be over andregretting that I ever had to be chosen in the first place. I loved mynew clothes and I loved Erin, but I was ashamed to love them like I didand I was.