I won't say anything yet to Uncle Bunny. I don't think he's hiring yet anyway. Call me this week though, even if nothing changes."I went back downstai...s after I got off the phone. I was pretty disappointed, and I felt bad for Jane, and even worse for Grace. I looked in the library, but no one was in there. The door to dad's study was open, so I knew he wasn't in there. I went out in the kitchen, and Gerta and Hans were eating."Where did Mama go?" They both went upstairs. I think they were. I didn’t want anyone else take my dog for me and I didn’t want anyone else there interfering with how I felt and detracting me from my thoughts for my dog. I wanted to say good-bye to her, my loyal, little friend and she looked at me for the last time, as if she knew. I held her paw, as the vet stuck her with the needle and, poof, she was gone, just like that and just so fast. Her pain was over and now she’s in Heaven. It made me feel better to think that Duchess was in Heaven waiting for me,. ‘Do you really have to yell my name so loud Emma, I’m not deaf,’ she said, coming downstairs, ‘What do you want?’ ‘Do you want to go out tonight? I feel like we haven’t been out in forever, and there’s this bar in town where there’s this dance floor.’ For some reason, Sara looked at me with suspicious eyes and didn’t say anything for a while. ‘You, you Emma, you want to go how and have fun? No hiding in your room doing god knows what?’ ‘Very funny Sara, and yes I want to go out, like we used. The fire-woman stoked the flames and I watched as the sparks rose and ascended through the opening at top of the tipi like lightning bugs escaping into the cool, dark night.When I looked down, there was a bowl being held under my nose that contained a powdered substance. I took the bowl and watched as the person next to me placed a spoonful of the powder into her mouth, then handed me the ornate spoon with a carved bird on the handle. I sat still, a person whose nearly total experience with.