I was feeling happy. She told me she bought Smirnoff for me, she really wants to drink. I said we will have drink in the bedroom, if grandma knows I d...n’t know what she will do.We moved to the bedroom and started to drink. We were sitting on the the bed which is on the floor, I like to be with her on the floor, my grandma knocked the door and asked me if I need anything, I said that shalini is going to stay, so no need to worry about me. She said okay and went to sleep.Now me and shalini are in. ‘I didn’t talk to her,’ he said, ‘I just mentioned it to a few people…’ He trailed off, then began again. ‘Well, you said you got lucky, so I assumed…’ ‘ASSHOLE!’ I screamed, and the assembled guests backed off. ‘I meant I was lucky to have met a woman like her. I never told you I fucked her. You lying weasel!’ Barb had shooed everyone out of the room. She said, ‘Jeff, you’re too mad to be here. Please, go home. I promise I’ll clean this up. Okay?’ She held my gaze with soft eyes that drained. I don't want to talk about it." I'M YOUR BEST FRIEND AND YOU WON'T TELL ME?? WHAT KIND OF FRIEND ARE YOU!" Maggie screamed.Her high heels clattered across the floorboards and the door slammed."Fuck this" I muttered. In my head, a voice told me "You're useless Elowyn. Useless. You are an accident. You took him away." I screamed and collapsed on the couch.-"WHAT THE FUCK?!?" I screamed. A pair of hands was shaking me. The room was dark. Outside, torrents of rain washed the city and thunder boomed. Older men are appreciative, older men want you, long for you, wank over you. I started to experiment, leaving the house with no pants on under my dress, sitting across from older men at the library and opening my legs, wide. I would drop things in front of older men at the pub, bend down so they could see my pussy peeking under my dress. I loved the feeling, the power it gave me to make someone want me so much, and then walk away as if nothing happened. I would often go home and finger myself.