I walked in the door shouted, “Hi" to her in the kitchen and went to take a shower. I had no idea that she was cooking up something more than cupca...es. When I got out of the shower I dried off, threw on a pair of shorts, and went to give her a kiss in the kitchen. When I walked in my jaw almost hit the floor, she was rolling out some dough in nothing but her apron, glasses, pumps, and some jewelry. I came up behind her, smacked her scrumptious little ass and asked her, “What are you. As aguy I had spent so many years combating the world by putting up a wall ofmachoism to protect myself and that even today I still do it. I realizedthat I needed to let that go. I didn't need to be that way anymore, it wasokay to let down the wall.I came to realize my surface desires to be a woman were just that thesurface, based on the physical aspect. All the things deep down thatreally counted, all the things that made me finally understand what it waslike to be female were all still there.. The man, who Robin thought looked like an old school Harley rider more than a quad biker, stood in the doorway as the group stood by the lockers.“I guess this is the time we take our clothes off… right.” Robin said to the man.“You’re damn right, why don’t you let me help you there…” said the man, walking up to Robin. “Or do you think you can manage on your own like a good little sissy boy?” Robin looked around to see the others begin to strip, “I’ll be fine.” The man looked at Robin, as he slid. I sat hugging her, smelling the baby shampoo she still used, and felt the tears running down my own cheeks. God, I thought, here I was holding a teenager I loved more than life, and now I had three more coming to care for. I knew deep in my soul I had enough love for all of them, but this one I was holding had always meant more to me than anything I ever thought I would find in my life. I sat thinking about my life and how many times I thought I was going to die, not knowing there was love in.