" Jason gently helps me sit up. My robe is in disarray and reveals my underwear clad body. I quickly cover up and look to him, still in shock. "Connor...died in a car accident last year, he had told me about you but he never told me your name until he was dying. In his will there was a letter explaining everything. A letter to you left for you also, he wanted us to reunite." "You were eighteen in February, the fifteenth." "Yes," Jason smiles, glad that I remember, "I have a photo of us."Jace. I. Your hands softly gliding down my arms to interlock your fingers with mine. You gaze deeply in to my eyes. Still no words are spoken. As we embrace once more, I hear your breath in my ear. I feel your soft passionate lips on my neck, your warm, moist tongue tasting my skin. We grip each other’s hands as we stand close together. Our bodies feeling like one. You gently lead me to the bedroom. I adoringly watch as you spark the candles and play soft, seductive music. As you stand in front of me,. "I think so. Hope so. Remind me to get down to M'Gregor's tomorrow. That's where I should have gone today. Have you seen that big nigra woman around that's a midwife, belongs up near Seneca Creek somewheres. You know the one?" Oh yes, they call her Big Mama. One of the Kraus girls, married that Johnson boy, she's about due, and I've heard that slave woman was tending her." I might want to talk to her, thanks." Beall turned over, surprised his wife had not asked why he wanted to see a midwife. A. My mother wouldn't do anything like this to me. I'm a virgin." If you weren't, Miss, they wouldn't let you be initiated in the first place." I'll just tell them I'm not a virgin. Then we can go home."A feeling of deja vu swept over me as I recalled a similar but opposite conversation with Abby four years ago. Abby had thought she could fake the loss of virginity."Your mother has told them that you are a virgin and they will check you before the initiation." But I'm scared." Look, come back.