"There, he'd said it. Why was that so hard? It was nothing less than the truth, but he still didn't like to say it.Lisa still didn't say anything, but...her face had become softer somehow."I know I screwed up, fair enough. But can we still be friends, or at least talk to each other?"Finally, Lisa opened her mouth. "Chris, you really hurt me."Chris swallowed and nodded. "I know. I can't believe I was so stupid." How about we just settle for talking to each other and see how it goes?" That's better. "All in good time, Darren. I suggest for now we head home and you getsome more sleep. "No argument here," he replied. "I want to say that I love you, AuntFaith." I love you too, Darren." They drove back to her house, and Darren went immediately to bed. Faithread more of his journal. Darren had finally gotten the nerve to speakto his parents; somehow Mr. Cameron must have sensed what was about tohappen. She read the despair in Darren's words as he wrote about themeeting with the principal and. .. well,I have these certain needs you can't fulfill, not any more, not everreally though I never wanted you to know that. I've been hoping thatyour love for me is so great you'll want to see them fulfilled anyhow.I waited.She looked at me closely. "I propose this. We marry. We make love asgirls. As girls do. Whenever, as we've been doing. But now and then,as girls do, I'll go on dates. With boys."I just looked at her. "Date other boys?" I finally managed to say it."Well, you don't. Irgendwie war ich enttäuscht, aber auch so geil das ich mir überlegte was ich jetzt mit mir tun sollte. Dann kam er aber doch noch mal wieder und herrschte mich an, wenn du es dir selber machst werde ich es dir nie wieder machen und auch mein Freund nicht. Dann ging er hinaus und ich starrte ihm nach, ich durfte mir keine Erleichterung verschaffen, ich zitterte am ganzen Körper, ich wollte einen Orgasmus haben, ich wollte kommen und wenn ich es tun würde? Er würde es merken dachte ich zu mir,.