But I knew her as Tom. And that explained all the secrecy. But I needed confirmation. So I looked her in the eye, smiled, and decided to ask her a cou...le of questions that would have no meaning unless she was actually Tom. I first asked her if she played pinochle, she looked surprised, but nodded, and I got the next question out before Tim or the VA rep could say anything. "Have you ever lost to someone with quad aces and triple 'nuks'?" She absently nodded, then looked absolutely horrified and. I sat down at the desk and opened the packet and realized I did not have a pen, went to the door and stuck my head out about to ask for a pen and there she was reaching down to straighten her stockings her ass was pointed right at the door as if she knew I was there, I cleared my throat said excuse me. She just looked around smiling at me. I could see straight down her blouse, stammering I asked for a pen and she pointed to her desk. She never stood up like she was posing for me. I walked. We talked about her motorcycle she was rebuilding. After lunch we went back to the condo and went to the hot tub. In the hot tub, Theresa's feet were touching mine. I didn't mind and we started playfully flirting. I gave Theresa a hard time about her using me as a rebound. This seemed to entice Theresa's advances more. She moved up beside me in the tub and I put my arm around her. We started kissing. The kissing got intense. I took her glasses off and she got on top of me... straddling my legs.. I waited for the familiar emptiness to descend and when I felt my equilibrium return I opened the door.And there she was.I felt my jaw drop; I tried to speak but no words would come, I gave up and just drank her in. A thirst in my soul that I had all but forgotten was suddenly apparent by its disappearance. I felt the tears on my cheeks but all volition was denied me as the object of my denial stood before me as I'd often imagined, but long given up any hope of seeing.She looked spectacular;.