Basically, I want to fuck her into stupidity, well can't have them all, some sadly do get away. We still talk and exchange stories about different thi...gs here and there and a lot of time are about SEX. Ok, to be honest, we talk about SEX a lot of times, almost all the time. I would say there is a hidden underlying sexual Chemsity or tension in there, between us but I could be misreading her or most likely wishful thinking, I think is mostly wishful thinking. Either way, this is a Friday night. I had slipped her panties down just over her thighs so that at any moment I wished I could lift up her plaid skirt and look at her ass in motion. What an intoxicating sight it was. I left the door to my bedrrom open so that we could hear the front door open and give us time to compose ourselves. I had to keep the reality of the situation in my mind and not become so utterly lost in the delirium of the moment. Natalie was quick to undress. Her skin glowed in the soft afternoon sunlight. We entered a room she welcomed me and said to sit on the bed.The room was divided by a glass one for a bath tub and the other for a king size bed.I sat on the bed and she came in front of my gave me a lip kiss uuuummmmaaaaaaaaahhhhhhAnd opened my shirt slowly while wantedly making my palm touch her boobs…..They were so soft over the bikini.Then she opened my pant and pulled out my fully erect dick and gave a kiss to itThen she led me to the bath tub which is half filled with hot water, and made. I don't know how you could avoid feeling contempt. I should be ashamed of considering leaving a world as beautiful as this one. But I despise myself when I consider that I cannot manage to live one single day without feeling I'm a total and utter disgrace and causing problems for the other people around me.I know you get furious with me. It seems like I want you to show a strong emotion, because I do it to you so often, almost every day. Why is that? I start the argument and then I cannot stop..