He had no choice, but I was still too angry when I left. I… When he showed up and killed TanaVesta, I was too ashamed to admit everything I’d been...through. It wasn’t until after he died killing the last Outsider that I found out I was pregnant. I… I…” she went silent for a moment as fiery tears poured from her eyes.“You can be a real jerk sometimes,” Shelly glared at him. She looked like she wanted to go and comfort the Pillar of Fire, but Angela was still in the molten pool, and none of them. Fingertips as gentle and soft as a butterfly’s wing brushed over her eye’s and lips “I do understand, you hide behind your uncaring numbness so you don’t have to feel life’s pain you don’t have to feel the hurt of what you perceive as rejection, but that numbness prevents you from feeling the love, the fire, the desire deep inside you, a fire for life Lexi doll” Lexi gave him a pleading look “please don’t do this Gideon, I thought you were my friend” Gideon brushed his lips over hers “I am your. ‘Oh … oh … I’m sorry.’ ‘Yah … me too.’ ‘Accident?’ ‘Cancer.’ ‘Oh, dear. Was it …?’ ‘Very.’ He looked away, out the side window. Even after almost three years, he would tear up when he thought of her. He kept thinking he would get over it and it hadn’t yet happened. He wondered if he ever would. He waited as the impulse subsided and then once again looked back out the windshield. Donna knew what was happening and was silently kicking herself for pushing him into that territory. They rode along. Instead, he wondered at just how easily he was handling his unbelievable situation. At how he'd managed to keep from panicking. But after thinking about it, Walter realized why. It wasn't justshock, though that undoubtedly played a very large part. As strange and horrible as his new situation, his new body seemed, it was much preferable to being dead. If he had a choice between being a corpse and being an alien girl, there was no question of which he'd choose. With this realization, Walter.