” “Well, honesty is a virtue,” she replied, smiling cheerfully and blushing just a bit. “Honesty, huh? Okay, let me be perfectly honest, Jimmy...” “Oh, you recognized me?” “I knew you as soon as I saw you. I mean, I've seen you before when you were laying out in your backyard or just out there walking around. My bedroom overlooks your yard. Not only that but I can look right into your bedroom window and I have a few times. I've seen you changing into Deann.” Her heart was sinking fast. All this. Sherry and I continue to use code words of which we understand the intent. “Grocery shopping” or “go shopping” specifically means we’ll go to the store and find a quiet place to park afterwards so we can have sex. We don’t show any affection in public. If you were to see us together, you’d probably assume we were related or just friends. We are very careful not to let anyone see us doing anything intimate to ensure no one can ever gossip or bring it back to her husband. Sometimes, she’ll even. I don't know, more 'real', more authentic. This new you seems a bit artificial. As if you're trying to be something you clearly aren't. You've always been moody and preoccupied, but before it made you more human, more concerned with people. This new attitude makes it seem like you no longer care about anyone." Yeah, that was Cate's point," Alex admitted. "But that was never my intent. I've just been thinking of dark things: death, rebirth, the pain involved in the process and the chances all my. He stood up and quickly turned around, his back to me, it looked like he was re-arranging himself. Was he turned on? Had I given my little brother a hard-on? He faced me again. Ill see you in the morning then, if you need to talk or anything. (Or anything!?) Just say, ok? Ok. I stood up and put my arms round his neck and moved in close for a hug. Then I felt it. A bit of movement through his jeans up against the top of my thigh. My god, I thought, what does this mean? What do I do? My mind.