But he wanted more. He kept dropping hints like saying: he had a boner, or saying if I loved him that I would have sex with him (I was such a virgin a... the time that I didn't even know what a boner was. He explained a boner was when a guy was horny that his dick got big and hard).He was my first boyfriend and I was so in love with him. I knew if I didn't please him that he would eventually break up with me. I didn't want to lose him, so I decided I would have sex with him. We waited till my. No talk is needed.”She agreed.We only layed there for just little while longer before she again broke the silence to ask if it was ok if she had to leave, as she had taken on an extra shift for that afternoon.She had no need to explain, but she did anyway, telling me that as she was in a leadership position, and for some reason they were running into nursing shortages, she tried to pick up as much slack as she could.I understood.I also understood that there was another reason for her picking up. I don't remember what I said at them time. I think I tried to change the subject and suggested something else to do, and she relented after asking me if I was sure a couple of times but she must have been able to tell I wasn't comfortable with the idea. That night I lay awake and cursed my timidity, wondering what it would have lead to if I'd had the never to accept her offer, but in the coldlight of day I realized I'd done the right thing. Julie would never have been happy with the sissy in. I just love looking at it, studying it. Just looking at your erection make me wet," I confessed honestly. I remembered that Alfredo's nickname for his penis was 'Freddie'. I started talking to this beautiful erection like it was its own person, separate and aware. "Freddie, remember me? Cindy and I have missed you. She is warm and wet and tight. You're going to stretch her out and make her feel really good for the next week, aren't you?" I teased. I was reminding Alfredo that I had named my.