But like, I already like, you know, know what it is and stuff? And like, tomorrow it’s like, kinda really going to like, you know, happen!My mom is ...ike totally a fox. Dad like totally says it’s his job to like, totally, you know, like keep her like, totally fit and slim? I don’t know if that’s like, true or anything but like, I’ve seen him like, you know, like tell her she like totally has to run five miles if she, like, wants that cheesecake and stuff? So you know? Maybe he does? Help her to. Something howls within me, pushes out with a concussive force until I shatter into a thousand scorched puzzle pieces. I’m dying. Spinning. Flailing. Ascending. Descending. Hell. Heaven. They’re all the same in that they’re all so utterly meaningless right now. My heart skips to a stop. I start to fade. Everything is quiet. O/o\O Heat is what pieces me clumsily back together, new pieces overriding old ones, everything melting into something new, monstrous. Rebirth. The blood boils in my. That is not, "de plane! de plane!" reminiscent of a famous TV show ... no, she unstrapped, unbuckled, opened the side door, and stepped out and on to the ground ... that kind of 'deplaned, ' ... disembarked had been taken years ago by boats.Junior, having never shut down, took off, leaving Connie to the tender mercies of the United States Military ... but fully cognizant of the operation of her watch.Escorted to the operations building by a square jawed, brown eyed Marine ... who looked faintly. For a while, things got worse and worse - until they started to get better. Slowly and gradually. Without some help from Fainauriel and Bellcauniel I might have lost my mind at some point. I had told them about my ‘normal’ nightmares and, together with those two women, I managed to convince myself that feeling bad about reliving those killings should just prove that I was a good person inside.Maybe. Then, why did I have a feeling that it could have also been mental training that would make sure.