"I looked back at my wife. "So, sex with me isn't fun?"Linda finally looked up at me. I tried to mask the pain in my face but I don't think I was doin... a very good job."Honey..." I didn't say that," responded Audrey, again heading Linda off. "But men have different ways of doing things. It's just variety, that's all. There are a lot of guys out there that love their wives enough to let them go out and have a little fun. It doesn't mean anything, Robert. It's just sex. Hell, Linda and I. .."Um, 'gulp,' does Diane's insurance, cover the whole bill so far?" I asked feeling small, frail, and very uncertain."Oh yes, Diane has very good coverage, although elective surgery, is not covered," she informed me enthusiastically.I felt so helpless, that I began to cry. I never cry! I didn't cry, when my father died, so why am I crying now?Nurse Maggie held me, and told me everything was going to be all right.The Doctor just stood there, hands on hips, looking exasperated.I whispered to. Looking back i could see a pattern in mytraining. The initial shaving sessions had served to humiliate me and make meaware of just what a useless piece of slave shit i was in the scheme of things.In stripping away my hair he had stripped away my ego, taken away my formeridentity and then by degrees increasingly dehumanised me so that my responseswere no longer rational but simply the primed responses of a trained animal. Therewas a kind of happiness in it as I did not have to worry about. I heard the dreaded "Hmmm" several times.I didn't even get a chance to get in line for lunch before Nancy Jo had her arm wrapped in mine and practically dragged me to the far side of the Science building. She pushed me through the bushes and I saw Becky Sue Schlabinksi sitting up against the building with a big smile on her face. I turned to ask Nancy Jo what was going on, only to see her walking away.Becky Sue is a year older than me. She lives in my neighborhood but hasn't ever had anything.