Jessica spoke first, “Mr. C, your not mad at me are you? I know your married and we probably shouldn’t have done that but I couldn’t help myself... I think you’re so sexy and I’ve always wandered what it would be like to be with you.” “Ever since I was 18, I’ve fantasies about you.”“No, its my fault Jessi, I shouldn’t have let it happen, but I too got caught up in the moment.” “After all, it was only a kiss, its not like we had sex or anything.” I then chuckled a bit to lighten the mood. “I must. I know better than to put my life on hold, and I haven’t.“I’ve been dating and I’ll continue to date. Who knows, I might meet someone I really want to be with. But, until that day, I’d like to keep seeing you when you’re in town. My other option is to simply let you go and likely never see you again. Maybe that’s the smart thing to do, but my heart tells me otherwise. I like being with you, Steve. I like what we have together when we’re together. Kyle adores you and that tells me that you’ll be. Was the future immutable? Could I change it? Could it be changed at all? Brenda loved talking of "what if" situations. She was a clever girl, was my Brenda!Our love life was improving dramatically too. Bless the one who designed the human thought process. The more danger Brenda felt that she was in, the more she wanted to have sex. I mean, with the US government looking for us, it was an adventure to go anywhere, or do anything.Tom had taken to sending members of congress lists of names of. Just listen’ I say and start telling her about my journey. I tell her everything, holding back only the parts about the sex. It takes over three hours to finish it all and for a time we sit in silence while just looking at the lake. Shelly is the first to speak ‘do you miss her?’ ‘Yes’ I say not needing to ask her who she meant. ‘Are you in love with her’ she asks in a near whisper. ‘Yeah… I still do.’ I reply. ‘You had sex with her’ She said in no more whisper. If was not a question but.