But I can't, not yet, I'm not ready." His eyes drilled into Phillip's as he spoke. "Just give me a little time to get the military out of my system. I...promise that I will be here ready to go on your next trip. Let me breathe the air like a free man for a few weeks before you ask me to confine myself to the decks of your barges and boat. I've been in jail and now I want to be free of all restrictions for a while. I need to have this time."Jamie's mind went back to those days in the brig. It was. . If we’re together and you see her again, I want you to point her out to me. If she knows where you live, she knows everywhere you spend your time when you’re not in school and not at home. Now that we’ll be living in town also, with the two of us watching, maybe we can catch her talking to whoever her contact is here in Masonville.”“You sound like Charlie now. He mentioned that she may be working for someone from around here.”“Just back off and take a look at yourself, Rick. You’re called the. The older white woman of my dreams was lying drunk in the next room. There wasn't a chance in hell that I'd sleep tonight.Lying in my bed, staring into the darkness, was pure torture. My obsession with pussy totally possessed my soul. I wondered if I was weirder than most kids my age. In my mind I fucked Abigail over and over, though I'd never yet actually fucked anybody. The closest I'd ever been to getting pussy was when I fooled around with this white girl from my school. She was Italian and. ..he smiled as he continued over to me. I noticed his bulge in his boxer briefs show through as he did. He was fit but yet real in his body size. His light dark skin glimmered as he stopped just a foot away from me. His and my eyes were staring at one another. He held out a piece of paper and read it to me. It was a note from the fraternity telling me before the Blowjob that I had to give this person in front of me was to be given me and said person had to kiss for ten minutes. I said to this.