"I disagree I don't think you know till you try."The conversation got serious. "Nath please tell me you are going to helpout Paul."That comment surpri...ed me and I snapped angrily. "So that's what this wasabout, it's just a bribe to make me change my mind."They both looked shaken by my outburst. Viv kissed me. "No love this wassomething I have wanted for a long time and when Carol told me shethought you were ready I couldn't wait. This has nothing to do with myrequest."Carol seemed hurt as well.. “A Mr. Diamond to see you,” Ted replied.“Send him in.”“Will do.”Ted took hold of the doorknob, but then he hesitated.“Maybe I shouldn’t say this,” he told Sam in a low voice, “and I’m sorry if I embarrass you or anything, but you can still back out if you want. Paul was very sweet to arrange this, and Paula is looking forward to it. But she’s a very understanding girl and she won’t hold it against you if you walk in there and say that you’re only willing to play video games and stuff.”Sam’s. It was about this time the previous Saturday when I'd leapt up and stood enjoying the sunshine and the sensations I found I could get from my body. The details of that lovely occasion replayed in my mind and I was soon absent-mindedly stroking my hand lightly over my body, a little smile playing on my lips as I recalled what had happened.On that occasion, Abi had poked her head round the door as I'd stood there. This time, as I was wrapped in my reverie, Mum poked her head in! I looked round. It was like I was a completely different person from who I was two weeks ago. And I really was. Two weeks ago, I was a severely plainly dressed Christian good girl, whom nobody would have expected to see in this situation. Today? Well, my dorm mates had pushed me into getting rid of the dowdy clothing, but I am still a Christian, and, I think, still a good girl. Two weeks ago, if I could have seen myself like this, I’d have thought I had turned into a slut. Today, I don’t see myself as some.