"I miss Saul," he says after our mouths break apart.Nimrod squeeze me tighter with that said."He has not been away from me..." his voice breaks. "Even...when..." his head drops onto my shoulder. "He has to be safe."I squeeze him back."The universe willing, he will come back to us." It has been so long."As our hug prolongs I can feel his body humming. My body is humming. We hum together. I wonder briefly if we should do something about it."You, have another note," Nimrod forestalls any thought. I started to cry and my face was covered with a wet napkin, when I came to I was in a hospital with my face covered with bandages, as was my torso. I kept dozing for for several days. Then one day a doctor and Nurse walked in and began to remove the bandages from my face they told me to look in a mirror, I saw a beautiful girl in the mirror I fainted, Then these thugs woke me up saying "wake up bitch" there was something pressing on my chest, I was forced to stand on my wobbley legs I was led. Frankie and Jake were sitting on the couch, heads together, talking softly. They weren't holding hands or even sitting really close or anything, and both were completely clothed. I don't know what they were talking about ... I never asked. But it was obvious their chat had the intimacy of close friendship.My movement drew their attention, and they both looked over at me. Feeling a little silly, I waved, and went on into the kitchen. I got a soda and popped the tab, taking a deep, bubble-filled. ” My mind did a quick calculation. She should be, what, eighteen or nineteen now? “How are you?”Her smile returned. “I’m fine.” She looked me up and down. “You look like you’re doing well, too.”“Looks can deceive.” From behind me, the counter server got my attention, passing me the precooked meal to take home.Kimber moved closer and studied the gourmet foods displayed perfectly. “Would you like to get a coffee?” she asked.Not really. Socializing was a chore for me. She smiled again, her intense.