’ ‘So I saw. Bus pulled up right as he started coming toward you. I was gonna run across the street but you punted his dreams into next year, so I...took my time.’ ‘Ah, so you were gonna let me hang out and do it all myself, eh? What happened to chivalry?’ she teased. ‘Practicality took it out behind the woodshed. But….we should get inside. The show’s about to start.’ She led him to the stunned ticket taker, who no doubt had expected a much tamer showing from the line at a Sade concert, and then. Camille tells me all the bad lines she gets, and the good ones too, usually lying naked on my lap, and we have a blast laughing of her sharp replies. Once this guy came to her, well-built, Hollywood-handsome. She turned to him, measured him up, and said: "sorry, I only like real men." Then she pulled me to her and kissed me like her life depended on it. I never felt more powerful."Not that I know of."Then she said something I never thought she would."I'm willing to sleep with both of you.. It was deserted, the club was evidently shut.Now it’s moments like this I truly see the two sides of my mind, because, on one hand, I was thinking, goddamnit I have come all this way and now I have to go back, all for nothing? But on the other hand, I was thinking, thank Christ it’s shut, I don’t have to go in!I started walking back to my Air BnB, feeling conflicted about the whole situation, when I came to a sudden thought, as if someone had turned the volume up on one of the voices inside my. And he couldn’t believe how good the mental torment he was undergoing made him feel. He could hear Vicki’s moaning and felt her muscles contracting around him, but with his eyes closed he could see the soft, lonely, sad face of Erin Durant and it made him want to cry…because it felt too good. He wanted to open his eyes, he really did. But something inside him told him to keep them shut. Told him to hold on to the image of the woman he really wanted to be inside of at that moment. He felt so.