I think that I have just the thing, she suggested with a smile on her face. Would you like to come with me and we can do some shopping, she said, grab...ing Little Bits hand and with a big smile on her face. Im Susan, whats your name? she asked walking away into the store. I took that as her way of saying that I was no longer needed so I decided to just sit down and wait. Pretty soon I caught a glimpse of Little Bit following Susan, loaded with clothes, heading back to the dressing room. She isnt. A dozen thoughts tumbled through her head in an instant. She wanted to say something to him about that, like how she'd missed the sex, too, but she didn't. He was trying to get them back together, and that was something. She decided to see where this would lead."Maybe we could get together, you know, maybe at the library or something, and study." Sure, I'd like that." He glanced at his watch. "What are you doing this afternoon, after your classes, I mean?" Nothing too exciting, get something to. I find myself shy. I do not want you to think bad of me, but somehow, I don't think you will. Just please know I'm giving you more trust than I've ever given anybody. So, if you'll excuse my inexperience, I will try to put into words what I did after we signed off our chat.I lay in bed for the longest, on top of the sheets, just thinking about all the things out there I am denied. I can't go into a sex-shop and buy those toys. I can't get wild in public. I can't have wild, mindless sex. And I. Then he lay beside her, holding her in relaxing arms as sleep took them both.Megan woke in the early hours and lay still beside her lover. She had failed. She had not told him. She was angry at her cowardice but what could she do? She was distraught at the thought of waking in his bed - he always reached out for her and renewed his love. Once he touched her she would be lost and would only want to be in his arms. She could not let him make love to her again and then, in the afterglow, tell him.