She said, “of course I know, u left the condoms lying around” and I was scared for a second because if my uncle found out I was fucking around, I ...as dead. She saw my fear struck expression and said in a consoling tone, “don’t worry dear, I threw it away before he could see it. I don’t want u to get a bashing”. “well thank u, I guess. But I’m surprised u hid it from him, aren’t u supposed to lecture me about being focused and all” I said with a wink. She said “bleh, a few years ago I might. But not yet. He wouldn't kiss her yet. He couldn't take kissing her and being rejected at this point. He couldn't take kissing her and having her respond in ways he had dreamed of. If she did he knew he would be lost. And he would not lose himself yet. He could not kiss her. But he could touch her. Yes he could rub his fingers against her scalp and relish in her warmth. He could listen to her small gasp as he pressed closer against her. And he could whisper her name assuringly over her lips as. . why?Why is it that when someone tells you that there are one billion stars in the universe you believe them, but if they tell you there is wet paint you have to touch it to check?Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard?Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw a revolver at him?Why did Kamikaze pilots wear helmets?Whose cruel idea was it to put an "s" in the word "lisp"?If people evolved from apes, why are there still apes? {Good question!!}Why is it that, no matter what. At least it didn’t when he was near. Her thoughts wandered to her future and wondered how long he would be a part of it. Frowning to herself that she now had to consider other parts of her life and her age with him in it would be difficult. That fact that she now knew Ben loved her intimately and completely didn’t help the fact the outside world would resist to 'n'th degree or fail to prevent her from getting older. She didn’t know how to handle that with the fact that she herself was in.