And Ashley was the one who was doing runway atsixteen." Oh, I'm starting to understand. Did you ever miss it?" What?" Uh, well, becoming a guy, you kn...w, puberty, growing muscles, and allthat stuff."Howard looked sheepish. He knew what he looked like and he knew that hedid look like a young woman trying to pass as a guy. He didn't look likea guy at all. He could shave his head and still look like a woman. "Well,sometimes choices come with consequences. I mean, I have to standresponsible for the. " You still don't. I won't push you into anything you don't want to do," I insisted."I used to know you'd NEVER make the first move. But now?" Dawn sighed. "Why do I get the feeling you're probably more experienced now than I am?"I blushed and bit my lip. "Maybe ... How far have you gone?"Dawn's eyes flew wide open. "Ben! I can't tell you that!" Why not? We always told each other EVERYTHING!" But you're a boy!"I shrugged. "I've ALWAYS been a boy."She stewed on that for a second, and I smiled.. In late October I'd noticed that I hadn't seen Jordan for several days but I just put it down to schoolwork or something like that. I was a bit surprised though one evening when I got a call from Trish asking if she could come over to talk to me.When Trish arrived, she looked like she'd been run over with an emotional steamroller. I noticed that Jordan wasn't with her and wondered why. Once she was seated I asked if she wanted something to drink. "Coffee, a coke?" I asked."Can you get me. One gentleman called Tom (not his real name) from Chorley did stand out though, he was then in his late fifties, married to a school teacher and wrote how he was an amateur photographer and would like to photograph me, yeh right of course he did, both Richard and I knew what he wanted to do all right lol.We arranged to meet at his home one day while his wife was at work, we arrived and chatted for a while, it was obvious everyone was a little nervous but Tom led us to room that had a velour.