"His dark golden stream blasted my face and as I tried to pull away his massive black open hand slapped me once again. Then as I looked up towards him...with my mouth closed, he pinched my nose, forcing me to open my mouth to breathe, and to swallow his piss."Drink it down boy. Remember, I am your superior and you need to learn from me boy." Yes sir, as you wish sir." The taste was hot, salty, almost vulgar and for some reason I enjoy it it just a bit. But I was totally defeated. I had never. Came to hall and put tv on. She came and sat next to me. Her left shoulder touched my right shoulder.. Oh she is so soft.Before many times we touched each other but never mind it. But this time it’s different. She asked me that, where is your lappy arjun? I said in my room. Go and bring that she ordered. I went to my room and she and followed me. I was searching for lappy, she sat on my bed next to my underwear and put her hand on it with out noticing. Immediately saw that and said chee! What. No -- I want you to be a husband first!" I am." No, you're not. the girls and I have been playing second fiddle to the firm for some time now. They're growing up, Brad -- and you and I are growing apart!" Sondra, honey, you know I love you and the girls, but I have to make a living. You've never objected to the money i make with the firm -- this house, the swimming pool, the BMW and Volvo, the..." I'm not saying you haven't been a good provider. It isn't the money, or lack thereof, it's time. Then, just when I was giving up hope, Scott came out to present some foodand he whispered in my ear: "You look fat". It was a lie and it wasoffensive and hurtful, but all I could think was: "He saw me. He islooking at me. He cares about how I look. I am getting there".Diary Entry 28I just try to keep working. I am good at my job and everybody knows it.I guess I have come to grips with being a woman chef, or more correctly atranswoman chef. I have learned how to smile again.I was worried.