At night, it didn’t have the sparkle of Manhattan but it was not as dark as Staten Island. The demographics were constantly changing inside Brooklyn...proper and it had plenty of history dating right back to the War of Independence with battles fought with wins and losses on both sides and lots of blood running in the streets both soldiers and civilians. Brooklyn didn’t identify as being part of the Big Apple at night. It was a place to itself separate and not part of the big town hustle and. I really don't know how long I would be expected to be a little girl evenif I got used to it for the most part it seems that I am going to a littlegirl for a long time. It was even worse, a diapered little girl. Thisbecame even more clear when the next stop mommy took me was to AngelicPretties where she wanted to make a few additional purchases.Ms. Michaels came up to mommy and said, "Oh it has been a while. Are youhere for more pretty outfits for little Emily here?" Well not exactly. Emily's. And badly.So badly that she never wants to be hurt that way again, by anyone--notthat I would ever hurt her, or could. She knows that, I think, rationally.But she has to believe it, too; she has to feel it. Trust too easily wonon one occasion is exceedingly difficult to extend to anyone else on lateroccasions.I had given her time. We had been lovers for months now, talking, holdinghands, kissing, and, now, only lately, getting half-naked and caressing,face to face and breasts to breasts. We'd. Somewhere there were some problems that needed to be addressed. I made a cup of coffee for her and a cup of hot cocoa for me to get started. I noticed that she was wearing a lot more makeup than normal. We reviewed the prospective colleges and started by dividing them into two piles. The first pile would get a second, more detailed look. The ones in the second pile were pretty much out of it for the first go round. That was one of the things I was going to discuss with Mr. Jenkins and the board.