So never be afraid and take those lessons I gave you along with those that were well learned to wherever you may roam. We charged our glasses and hel... them high and tried to reach for the skies in the crimson light of the setting sun's dark light. And now it seems I don’t need this life, and when I am standing in the flames I will know I was brave enough to die. So when you are standing in the shadows just know you will never be forgotten for I will still be standing there at your side. I saw her walking across the small field towards the sauna building to start the fire heating up the sauna. It was a nice cute log cabin type sauna with a patio and a jetty with a stepladder into the lake. The fire was lit, I saw the smoke slowly rising from the chimney as she walked back into the hotel and came out several minutes later with a glass of lemonade and sat down across from me to continue the conversation.“Sauna is on Anderson, ready soon, I kind of feel like having a sauna also,. Regardless of what herdream/nightmare had told her just before she went after Derek, she hadno real intention to do this again for quite some time, if ever againeven though she did love Derek a little more each day and that made herat least open to the possibility of it.Madeline was pretty sure that Brother Paul would like to hear aboutthese things when she finished with Jenny. The verbal slip about havingmore children was a positive sign in her opinion that the Lord's truthwas starting to take. I couldn't put it off any longer—I had to tell Sarah and the others so that they could prepare to take over for me when I am gone.I called a meeting of my friends and broke the news to them. I was touched to see that there was not a dry eye in the group. As I expected, Sarah broke into sobs and couldn't be consoled by Carmelita or me. I could not make her understand that I was almost looking forward to a cessation of the pain.CARMELITA'S STORY:I was walking down the hall when I heard the.