How I felt like I was just biding my time, just waiting to die. How the only thing keeping me from doing it myself was the thought of my beloved littl... child. The only thing worth living for anymore. The only reciprocal love in my life, and only just, and only for a little while. If I think of what I might do when my little one grows up and no longer needs a mother, my mind goes a black place, a place of unimaginable pain. Thing is, once a woman loses whatever she initially brought to the. “You both know the specifics of the Mescalero Trust. The other trusts will be very similar. Make sure their questions are answered, both good and bad. We must be completely truthful with them. If, after hearing the answers, a group of leaders wants to talk specifics, any time after tomorrow, bring them to the Hacienda and we will talk more there.”“It will be as you say,” Nantan answered as I mounted my horse.Turning my horse, I spurred him into a canter towards the Hacienda.Anna, all decked out. .. Willlll," she moaned as I slipped inside her."I'm just washing you," I assured even as I pushed a second long finger inside her slippery cave."You're not," Allie protested as my thumb lightly circled over her moist clit."Almost done." Hurry," she moaned as her insides tried to clench my fingers.I was given Saturday evening off as three of Allie's friends had promised to come over for dinner and keep her amused in my absence.I went barhopping, just hoping to find someone to help me release. Other then the clothes I wore, I was looking at the same face that had been changing in the mirror for the past six months.Mom dragged me to a kiosk that sold gold chains. She did all the talking.Before I could say boo, the girl behind the stand had opened up the divider and motioned me to have a seat. Two minutes later, I had black marker on my earlobes and finally a pair of little glittering studs in my ears. My head swam as I listened to the care and maintenance of my newly pierced ears.As.