I was exhausted. Mom brought a glass of water in and set in on the nightstand so I could reach it. Nancy suggested that I raise up a bit so she could ...ut a pillow under the scar where they'd removed my kidney. I lay back down and must have fallen asleep because that's the last thing I remember for a while.The next few days are all a jumble to me. I'd fall asleep in the middle of the day and be wide awake at night. I know I drove Mom crazy. I'd get hungry at night and make her get up and fix me. “Dance with her.”I invited Karen to dance. We danced to swing numbers and I felt that she really knew what she was doing on the dance floor. When a slow number came she molded herself against me and I felt a real woman. Shortly, I could feel the heat of her groin against my belly and I know that she could feel my erection. I did what was natural, lifted her chin and I kissed her. Apparently that’s what she wanted because she kissed me back with even some tongue.The silence lingered. “Kiss her. Liz and I will be by tonight if that is alright with you.”John smiled as he glanced up to the sky knowing that Mrs. South would be smiling down upon him at this moment. He answered, “That would be fine.”“Good. For now, we are going to the seafood restaurant across the street for a little something to eat. Would you join us please?”“Sure, I would love to join you.”The meal with the Brown family was pleasant despite the circumstances. It was nice to know they felt comfortable in considering him. Therewas a whole chicken to prepare. Fortunately, Mom had left detailedinstructions about removing the gizzards etc. That was so gross! At leastI'd be able to cheat on the stuffing (stove top) and the gravy (Heinz). Ilet the dog in and decided to do a few loads of laundry. Remembering mypromise to myself about counseling, I hit the Internet and began doing asearch. I wasn't quite sure what inquiry would yield the proper answers.A search on "boys who want to be girls" came back with a bunch of.