It does not matter whether it is keyholding, verbal abuse and humiliation, my hormone therapy or just remind me again and again that I am not worth to...have sex with woman because I am pathetic or giving me their cock to practice blowjobs and anal.I will post all my experiences and thoughts in this blog because I want to share it and also to give other sissy newbies a clue and help them to manage their thoughts and feelings. I know how hard it is to be aloe with all that, I had this phase for. I’d hear her voice giggling and asking if I was still up. If I was, I’d invite her over. If I had already gone to bed, I would just unlock my front door. She’d stop by and slither into my bed naked like a horny thief. She usually woke me by fondling and sucking my cock till I was hard enough to ride, then she’d cowgirl me to death. “Oh God, please let me die that way.”Besides being a good fuck, she was the least discreet person I think I ever knew. She often informed me about what she told. I took off the bows that hid her stiff nipples and took each nipple into my mouth. I learned quickly her nipples were extremely sensitive as each nibble of her nipple had her breathing getting heavier. I slowly slid my tongue between her deliciously large breasts and then moved downwards, my tongue never leaving her body. My tongue reached her shaved treasure; I paused my lips a millimetre away from her ripe cunt, and then moved lower. She gave out a disappointed moan as my head left her eager. I definitely wanted to see what the knitting would look like with nothing on underneath though I figured I could never wear it that way because my nipples would poke right through the holes.. I snatched the mini off the rack and headed for the changing room. I think I wandered into an obscure area of the store and found a little dressing room out of the way of the crowded scene because no one was in it and no one was around it while all the other rooms were full. “Oh well,” I thought. “Good for.