The day before we were to deploy, we loaded all my gear that I wasn’t taking to Iraq into the back of the Subaru. I could have stored it in the secu...ed storage at the motor pool but saw no reason for that. My brothers could drive it until I returned. Then I kissed her one last time and sent her back to Matucket. I was going back to war.Once we got to Kuwait, we took several days to acclimate and gear up, then we met up with some guys from the 101st Airborne who would be with us while we. Just before leaving, Mary's mother berated her for her cruelty in seeing them so seldom. Mary heard some of her own words, and pretense and denial were no longer possible.The night her parents left, Mary hardly slept at all. Suddenly, she could no longer protest her devotion to righteousness and her daughter's willful rejection of her values. She knew in her heart that she herself had not been lascivious and disobedient as a girl. She knew that her mother had gone far beyond reason. And she. That, unfortunately for me, wasn'twhat she desired.Next she helped me sit up so she could put the dress on me. That wasanother problem. I had never longed to be feminized. I mean, maybehaving to wear panties. Or to act less-than-manly. But not to be putcompletely into female clothing. Especially not baby clothes. She gotthe dress on me correctly and fluffed up the big bow. Along with thebooties and bonnet, the dress was pink. I mouthed my pacifier harder,desperate to have my voice. Take away everything else, and I can see myself with her… fucking her, giving her what she wants… but would it make me happy?’ Harry was deep in thought, completely losing touch with the outside world. Yes, it was wrong, he'd already established that, but was this what he really wanted… he knew Lily wanted this, but what about him? With a moment of thought, he realized that Lily was right, he'd always done what was expected of him. Marrying Ginny, becoming an Auror, fighting Death Eaters… So.