I confessed to him that I had masturbasted with a male friend or two when I had been younger, but I didn't see that as necessarily making a person gay... He was surprised by my confession and said how he wouldn't jacking off with me. Talking about all of this, I suppose made me feel uninhibited, so I said that I was willing if he wanted. The two of us got naked and we proceded to help each othr become aroused and get an erection. I have to admit that it was fun getting to fondle his hard penis. Friday night was dinner with the three of us. Sunday night was a triple date at the movies, with Martha sitting on one side and Ronnie on my other, all three of us holding hands. I did get a stare or two about the hand holding from a guy seated in front of us one night; I just grinned back at him.During the movie I sat absorbing the different feel of each woman's hand. Martha's held me snugly, now and then flirting with a nail on my palm. Her hand was warm, rather strong, her fingers shorter. “I know,” I said as I rose from my knees.I had asked Javier to help me put together a cheap new dresser I bought. Somehow, someway I had ended up on my knees, blowing him as a thank you.I had told myself I was going to stop meeting up like this with Javier. His wife, Sonia, had befriended me out at the pool. She was sweet and nice and had made a habit of sneaking mixed drinks in styrofoam cups out to the pool for us to enjoy. We were becoming friends, yet here I was swallowing her husband’s. Right then,I knew I was not being true to myself with how I ended it with Austin. Idid not treat my ex how I wanted to be treated. I ended a specialrelationship over something trivial.I told Shawn, even with us having a great time there would be no seconddate. I told him the truth. I still had feelings for my ex and wanted tosee if he would take me back. Like I said Shawn is a great guy and heunderstood. It was so sweet of him to say that Austin would be a foolnot to take me back and my ex.