She started working at the oversized convenience store where I worked as stock clerk. She is cute, auburn hair in her mid 20's.My current wife is term...nally ill, and I know she will be gone soon, so I just converse pleasantly with Auburn.We talk almost every shift when we are scheduled at the same time. I learned that we shared a dislike of the lazy teenage boys who work opposite me. That isn't very difficult of a coincidence, they leave their unfinished work for me to complete and they try to. And I could see what was probably their blanket and stuff about 25 yards away. I went into full James Bond mode, and crept another five yards closer and sat down in the dune grass to watch. They were both down in the water to their necks now, but periodically one would pop up showing me the back of their white bathing suit as they did. I kept watch from my hiding spot for a while wanting to see them when they came up to the blankets. Finally they both stood up, backs to me and began to look. . I looked over at them and felt so embarrassed of what happened last night with my mates as I shack the last few drops from my penis...Mum speaks to me and says ("at least its not vomit, I thought you would be throwing up..I was awake all night thinking about you and your school friends getting drunk,luckily your father wasn't here and had to work last night,now get into the shower, you'll feel better ")..I pulled my bathers down ( with both mum and Rebbecca whispering to each other how I. By the time we graduated college it had become an obsession. I would see black men and picture myself on my knees, pleasuring them. I'd picture myself being forced to suck them as I feigned innocence and disgust. I would think about how long and thick their dicks were, and obsess over BBC interracial porn. My girl and I had sex less and less at this point, but I still considered myself straight, and never actually followed through or did anything despite my growing fixation. We broke up with me.