I’m only eat one meal a day and I only do that to keep from starving myself. I’m not hungry anymore. I have been drinking a lot too. I know it’s...not good for me but it’s the only way to I can get to sleep. Sue: John and Vanessa get back on October 20th around 8pm. I go to them and tell them that Joan has told me she’s going to move back to the old apartment building. John says ‘Why?’ I say ‘Well, she’s really missing you two. Both of you. We’ve taken her in with us a couple of times but she is. They owed him the time and he was going to take it. It didn’t take more than a few minutes to book a round trip, open end return, ticket on AA to Paris. From there he would rent a car and tour Europe for a few weeks, something that he always had in mind. Of course that dream had included Denise. The reality now was that he would be taking this trip alone. He was honest enough with himself to know why this sudden decision. The news that Denise was engaged finally awakened him to the reality that. Her arms pulled against the restraints holding her in place, frustrated that they allowed no leeway for her to satisfy herself.And so she cried out, begging them to keep fucking her; begging them to use her.“Oh God, please fuck my ass! Please! Please fuck my ass!”She cursed at them – calling them motherfuckers; cunts; bastards. She looked directly into the camera, Pig moving around their sweaty bodies as he filmed.She made threats.“Don’t you dare stop, you motherfucker! Stick that fucking. I found him just outside the door, fidgeting, face contorted with conflicting emotions."Oh Dawn, how could you?" He groaned.The incident could easily have torn us apart, alienated us from each other. Thank god, it did the opposite. We had always been closing, drawn together after Dad died, looking out for each other despite the three-year age gap. When Rowan came home unexpectedly, and found me in the shed, it was the beginning of a new understanding between us, deeper and more special than any.