I kept telling myself that being consumed by this obsession was no good for me, but I couldn't not go and seek her out.My chance came two weeks after ...y first sighting. I left the store and saw her in the parking lot near a car with the hood up, peering into the engine compartment with disgust.I walked up and said, "Hi, need some help?" Goddamn thing won't start," she said, frowning.I knew a little about cars and asked, "You want me to try?" Go ahead," she said, as she put her groceries onto. A little dab here and there. You fill in one part, scratch outanother. Endless corrections, improvements, false starts,improvisations. It's all okay. She's only going to be pissed if youdon't take up the job at all. Fact is, if you're doing it right, you'renever really finished with the job of creating and recreating yourself.That's what makes a beautiful life."One day death comes around one day and takes the job away from you,finished or not, but that's as it has to be, because it's never. Tom had just handed me a gin and tonic when his phone rang. It was his office calling on an emergency. So he excused himself saying he will come back as soon as he can. Well that is when sis told me she needed to get home too, because she did not tolerate the sun, did not want sunburn. Adding, that I should stay and enjoy myself, Tom could bring me home later. I just know she had an alternative motive for leaving me there alone. That left Jennifer and me sitting by the pool. We decided to get. They’re moving everyone to new quarters. My husband deployed with 2nd Brigade in October.”“Oh, my husband deployed in October as well. He’s on a MiTT team. Do you have any k**s?”“Not yet, we were thinking about it, but then he got deployed. Definitely when he gets back.”“I have three, 2 boys and a girl. They’re all at camp this week.”“Congratulations on your free week! That’ll give us time to hang out and get to know each other. Would you like to come down tonight and watch a movie?”“That.