. while you’re awake.”“No need to play rough,” I said. “Where’s Maddie?”“On her way to Europe, I understand,” she said.“Europe?”...I said. “What the heck for?”“Didn’t ask and don’t want to know,” she said. “I’m out of the spy game, or whatever you want to call what we just went through. I’m a simple country doctor at heart.”“I know you’re a lot more than that, but fair enough,” I said, “and thanks for saving my life.”“Let’s not go over that again,” she said. “Besides, after what Miss Madeline. Only when they were down to two or three a day did they push the remaining rotting carcasses into the river to get rid of them.They traded most of the meat from the tails to the women for skinning the crocodiles instead of paying them with gold. The women were excited to get the meat for their families and sold any extra in the market. As a bonus for the job they did, I told the men I would pay for each of them to have a pair of crocodile skin boots made and left the money with the supervisor.. Add to all of that the fact that he was just about the nicest guy you’d ever want to know and I was head over heels. I tried to be near him as often as possible no matter how much sleep I lost while splashing out load after load every night fantasizing about him. I was driving myself crazy with mad desire for him but I couldn’t make a play for him in this early 80’s small town. I wasn’t as worried about being found out as I was over the possibility of losing our friendship. In retrospect I now. You are making it all seem as if I am some iniquitous culprit that one can never get to lean on. Well, you are erroneous if you are holding that of me. I am a sound and accountable man, I must assure you. I dont get to see women as nothing but sexual devices to be mauled and knocked about as one feels like. Thank you for your time in any case. With that, he was vanished, making haste with his bag clinched in hand furiously. An extract from Milas diary: Sweetie, I am in love with you. God knows.