Die Mutter schaute nun mir direkt in die Augen und sagte: ?In Wahrheit seid ihr doch nur zu sp?t, weil Dein kleiner Wessi an Dir rumfummeln wollte. We...n Du kleine Schlampe mit ihm rummachen willst, musst Du eben auch die Konsequenzen ertragen!?. ?Mama bitte, k?nnen wir das bereden, wenn Mark wieder weg ist?? sagte Susi und schaute ihre Mutter mit flehendem Blick an. ?Warum denn. Dein kleiner Streber-Wessi soll doch ruhig wissen, was Dir jetzt bl?ht?. ?Oh Mama bitte, h?r auf damit!??Ich bin an. On the other hand, she wanted him to want her, and he -- not at all subtly -- did.“Let’s compromise. I want to go to bed now, and to sleep fairly soon. I’ll crash. I certainly won’t be in the mood if you wake me up at ten or eleven. On the other hand, if we both go to bed now, I won’t blame you if you get up later.” Blame him? She doubted if she would even know.“That’s different. Want your bathroom time first?”“Not tonight. I don’t want to lie in bed alone.” Once she lay down, she’d be out for. We kissed for 4-5 minutes then I turned her to bed and kissed her on the forehead, slowly moving to eyes, then to cheek to neck. On purpose, I bite her neck area little harder. She flinched in pain, I get up blindfolded her and moved to the kitchen to bring some ice and chocolate syrup. She was anxious, I told her to calm down. I removed the towel from her body and pour some chocolate syrup around her breast and naval area. Then suddenly I placed ice cubes on her body, she moved her body like. I had made my own bed and had to lie in it. And now… Gaynor’s words, thirty-two years after I turned my back on her, confirmed my worst fears. Not only did I spite myself - but I devastated a beautiful, caring young woman. So much so, that she refused to fall in love again. She couldn’t face the prospect of another heartache, another loss, another traumatic episode. Well done, Richard, you bastard. So, what now? My eyes fixed on Gaynor’s words and found that, somehow, they were amazingly kind..